Did you ask?

Did you pray about it?  Did you ask God about it?

Grateful for scripture and friends that point me back to God with my questions.

Did you imagine?

Immeasurably more than I can imagine is a promise that gives me license to dream outrageously big. Yet, everything I have accomplished has been based on what I can directly influence.

I seek excellence in all things.  God promises more.  God doesn’t promise 2x or 10x more.  God promises “immeasurably more.”  Without measure. This stretches my analytical mind. 

Biggest Fear

My biggest fear is disappointment.  Most often, this comes in the form of missed expectations. 

I expected a big, huge miracle for Antonio this side of eternity.  There were so many twists and turns along the way and around every corner. I expected healing.  In the end, Lazarus was my benchmark.  In the ICU, removing Antonio’s life support, I expected spontaneous breathing.  I was met with a loud, disorganized cacophony of noise and gurgling that fell into silence. 

I continued to believe that God had a plan, but I didn’t realize that my faith took a large hit.  After my expectations for a miracle were met by Antonio’s final breaths, I no longer hoped for anything out of my immediate control. 

Trust

I thought I trusted.  I thought I believed. And then l I encountered this series on Crazy Faith.  It had me in tears.

What Changed?

I had to really let go and let God.  I had overlooked the freedom in Christ that I had access to. 

God is faithful

I prayed and petitioned.  I am not sure about the give thanks part.  Certainly, my heart and mind were guarded. But through my prayers, petitions, and belief, I allowed myself to begin again and to dream boldly.

Rejoice

I am learning to rejoice in the trials whereas before I reserved my thanks-giving for results.  Now I thank God every morning for the day and the bounty in store for me.  I face each day with anticipation of what God is going to do.  Having hope and gratitude is wonderful. He, indeed, is faithful.

Fill me up

I love music.  This song came to my heart. I’m sharing it with you in the hope that it touches your heart and your soul --  a little praise music by Tasha Cobbs.